an aroace moment

I remember vividly when I was 14 years old (im 18 now, figured I was an aroace at 16) I was reading this romance book, and the main character was dating this guy but she wasn’t really feeling it. So, me not knowing what an aromantic asexual was at the time, I got really excited by the way she was explaining her feelings towards this guy. She was explaining how she didn’t want to go out with him, hold his hand and do affectionate gestures or get sexually intimate with said boyfriend and I just remembered feeling like yes, this is how I feel, she’s getting me. So I was waiting for the moment she would explain why she felt that way so I could finally understand why I felt that way but yk since it was a romance novel, it was because she wasn’t with the right person and you can imagine how defeated I felt towards the end.